Contemplative

I just had my first IUI (artificial insemination) on Tuesday. I stayed home the whole day, watched t.v. and talked on the phone. All the doctor's orders of course! Rick had to leave to go out of town to work at the Daytona 500 the same day. I guess I'm feeling lonely and left out. I have work, then I go home and nothing. I worry about this procedure that I had. Did it work? What if it doesn't, then what? How am I going to feel no matter the outcome? It's a lot to take in. I guess I wish I had more friends here. I have a few, but mostly I talk to them on the phone and we hardly ever get together. I think if I had more friends, I could busy myself with them and not sit around here worrying about whether or not I'm going to be pregnant in two weeks. I'm very anxious and stressed out. I don't handle either one of those things very well-ask anyone. I got pregnant with Shelbey accidentally, it's no secret, I was 17 years old and 18 when she was born. I didn't worry about anything when I was pregnant with her. I'm thinking I'm going to worry about EVERYTHING this time around. That's if this even works. (I know, I should have a better attitude, but I guess I'm setting myself up to not be disappointed.) I really want to enjoy this, it's going to be a totally different experience this time around. It's Rick's first baby and he and I have so much to learn and relearn;) Ok, I'm going to go try and stop stressing and relax. Wish me luck!